Lately,from time to time I missed myself:

-my laugh
-my joy
-my love
-my dreams
-my hope
-my imagination
-my forgiveness
-my uniqueness

everything that made me I missed and became pale to the world

But I'm back

The last couple of days I've felt everything intensively...
so standing in the rain wasn't such a bad thing...I could feel it wash away all the bad feelings and It blessed me with the feeling of living my life
with full lungs and every breath was like the last...in that moment I felt alive in this whirl of thoughts and I have been freed from the constant thought of failing in life...
everything that wasn't important vanished and the only thing that was left was me for a change

It fulfills me like watching the stars or watching the clouds...Altough I always liked the night more,because somehow the night was my time...when all the streets are empty and it becomes silent...with only me on the streets facing the coldness of this town.. I really never knew how to appreciate the beauty of the day...

But now I know how to appreciate it

just like I know from now on I won't ever get wet on the rain I will walk in the rain...and I know if I ever called the rain a bad weather I haven't danced in it ..but I have

The life of every man is a diary in which he means to write one story, and writes another.

~James Matthew Barrie

If you cannot be a poet, be the poem.

~DavidCarradine

A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing.

George Bernard Shaw

In the past few months I've been really happy for just being myself and I don't intend to change anymore.I constantly smile and my smile makes me remember my inner child.I used to smile A LOT when I was a little kid...

I guess when we are little we are ourselves and the more we grow we stray from that path and we try to be someone else.

I't true that we can become everyone...but I think I'm better of as myself

Been deserted on an island for three full days and finally came back...a little tired bust still up for advantures...

more or less...XDXDXD

I haven't sleept well for a loing time I think my brain is going to melt...

bored all day,and have no inspiration to even move from the couch...

Still wearing a emo haircut...and i am not emo...I am debil inside..XDXDXD

lost hope for having a normal relationship...gained hope for becoming a professional gambler...XDXDXD

altough someday i would end sleeping in some rad abandomed house...XDXDXD...oh and the house would be and is located by the church..XDXDXD

Finally things are going well in some weird way.I think I'm starting to see things as they are and honestly I think I'm giving up on them even if I don't want to.I can't really explain why,maybe because I want to see that others care too.Even though my life was a complete nightmare for 4 months I feel soo relieved right now.Things became better.Even better then I hoped...All I can do right now..Is put my life ambitions on first place and have fun.